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My Darkest Days and Psalm 13

March 13, 2015

Reading Psalm 13 (link to Psalm 13 NIV)

There was a time when I felt like these verses in Psalm 13:1-4 “How long, O LORD? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me?

    How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O LORD my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death; my enemy will say, ‘I have overcome him,’ and my foes will rejoice when I fall.”

I am not sure, well, I am – that during several of the years that I felt that way, that I didn’t wholly and fully and completely trust the LORD as I should have – as David did in verses 5 & 6.

    “But I trust in Your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in Your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for He has been good to me.”

Throughout my darkest days I still had a love for GOD, but I also tried to hide some of myself from Him because I had the idea that He couldn’t use me and my life for His glory and service because I was too unworthy – I had the unworthy part right – but I was missing the bigger truth and the real beauty of the love story between me and GOD – He sees me and knows me full well – and loves me anyway!!! Jesus loves me anyway enough that He bought my eternal soul and my life with His own blood and cleansed me and made me whole by His own power, blood and sacrifice. He calls me His own and loves me. Thank You, LORD!

Even on my darkest days – now, today – I can say because I have known the LORD and He has been good to me – that I do trust in the unfailing love of my LORD and Savior, Jesus. I do rejoice in His salvation, for salvation comes from the LORD and is not dependent upon me, but on Jesus and His finished work on the cross. Now that I understand that, I do have a song in my heart to sing. Because I understand now, what Jesus did for me, I sing because I am happy and free. I trust in Your unfailing love, LORD. I rejoice in Your salvation. I will sing to You, LORD, for You have been good to me!