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‘Til It Burns In Your Bones

We all have shadows

In our past

Things we don’t want

To see clearly

We all have been hurt

Sometime, by someone

And at times that hurt

It is so real

There are times

When I must admit

That you hurt me

And there are times

When the pain is so raw

But I know that you

You did your best

And sometimes life is hard

But I gotta remember

Yes, we all must remember

That we are called to forgive

Oh, just as we are forgiven –

So shall we forgive.

There is a choice to be made

Are we gonna hang on

Or can we let it go

I know there will be times

When the pain returns to haunt you

But at that moment

You have a choice to make

Are you gonna hang on to it forever

‘Til it burns in your bones

Or are you gonna

Just give it to Jesus

Yes, just give it to Jesus

Make your choice for love

And let it go

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Job 42 Forgiving and Blessings

I was reading my Bible the other morning and I noticed something in Job that I had not previously noticed.

I was on my way to Psalms in my Bible whenever my eyes fell on certain words of Job in chapter 42. I had highlighted a verse that became dear to me during these past couple of years. My faith in God has become my own personal faith and I have developed my own relationship with Him. That is why I had highlighted the following verses:

Job 42:5-6 “My ears had heard of you
    but now my eyes have seen you.
Therefore I despise myself
    and repent in dust and ashes.”

Then I continued to read to the end of chapter 42. That is where I saw something that really struck me about forgiveness and receiving God’s blessings. The verses at the very end of Job told me that God was not pleased with Job’s friends because they had not spoken the truth about Him like Job had. God told them to take a sacrifice to Job to be offered up for them and that He would hear Job’s prayer and not deal with them according to their error! And after they did what God told them and Job prayed for them, then that is when God blessed Job and restored to him more than what he had lost during his time of testing!

OK… Did you catch that? We all hear about how God blessed Job and restored to him more than he had lost. We hear about Job’s patience and endurance. We hear that God rewarded Job because he did not curse God.

I think it is of utmost importance that we realize that God did not bless Job until AFTER he forgave his friends and prayed for them!

Here is the verse: Job 42:10 After Job had prayed for his friends, the Lord restored his fortunes and gave him twice as much as he had before.

The other important thing to notice is that Job’s friends did do as the Lord told them to do and took their offerings to Job for him to offer up for them and to pray for them. Then, the Lord accepted Job’s prayer for them and did not deal with them according to their folly.

Here are the verses: Job 42:7-9 “After the Lord had said these things to Job, he said to Eliphaz the Temanite, ‘I am angry with you and your two friends, because you have not spoken the truth about me, as my servant Job has. So now take seven bulls and seven rams and go to my servant Job and sacrifice a burnt offering for yourselves. My servant Job will pray for you, and I will accept his prayer and not deal with you according to your folly. You have not spoken the truth about me, as my servant Job has.’ So Eliphaz the Temanite, Bildad the Shuhite and Zophar the Naamathite did what the Lord told them; and the Lord accepted Job’s prayer.

Now, the end to this story is stated very simply and the emotional aspect is easy to overlook. I do not believe that it was easy for Job to forgive his friends who did not comfort him during his time of testing. I do see that because he had a real encounter with God and did himself repent in dust and ashes, that it probably was a lot easier for him to forgive them and pray for them than it would have been before his time of testing. There is another whole lesson in that…. But I want to acknowledge that forgiveness is not an easy thing for us to give. But that does not let us off of the hook!

What I learned from Job 42 is that God did not bless Job and restore to him all that he had lost until after he prayed for his friends that had hurt him. I see that Job came to a personal revelation knowledge of God and humbly repented before Him. But that alone did not secure his blessing from God. God knew Job’s heart and knew that He could trust Job to obey Him, to forgive and to pray for the friends that had hurt him. After this was done is when God blessed and restored Job.

I have been learning more and more about forgiveness. The words that Jesus said when He taught us how to pray have been sticking with me a lot more in the past couple of years. Seeing this lesson in Job about how Job prayed for his friends reminds me that Jesus said that if we do not forgive those who hurt us, then God will not forgive us….

That is pretty heavy.

Jesus said that we are to forgive those who hurt us in some way seventy multiplied by seven times… in a day… that is as much to say as always forgive your brother or sister (Matthew 18).

Also, in Matthew 18:21-35, Jesus tells the parable of the ungrateful servant who was unwilling to forgive as he was forgiven. Jesus said that all who behave in the same way will receive the same punishment from the Heavenly Father that the ungrateful servant received. The ungrateful servant was handed over to be tortured until he repaid all of his debts.

I don’t know about you, but I do know that I could never repay anyone for the hurts that I have caused in my lifetime to others. I do not want to be turned over to be tortured. I am beginning to see just how much I have been forgiven and I am so grateful. I am so grateful that I do wish for others to also be forgiven so that they can receive the blessings of God and know His love.

I truly believe that if we would stop holding one another captive to the sins of our pasts, that we see many more blessings for not only ourselves, but for others. I truly believe that forgiveness is one of the keys to the kingdom of heaven. I truly believe that if we will allow God to reveal His love to us that we will be more like Him and the entire world would be a much more pleasant and less painful world.

**There is a great book out there called Total Forgiveness by R.T. Kendall that I read many years ago. A Christian Counselor referred me to this book when I told him about how I was molested for many years as a child. I honestly believe that because God led me to forgive and I was able to do so from my heart with His help that I became able to receive more of God’s love. The book, Total Forgiveness, gives a Biblical definition of forgiveness and brings forth references from Scripture that allow truth to come in and bring healing. You can find more about R. T. Kendall and his book at: https://rtkendallministries.com/total-forgiveness-2

~Angela Dingler 1/8/2016 *from my morning on 1/4/16

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Forgiving – Tearing Down Strongholds (notes from a study Jerry and I are doing)

by Jerry 9/9/14

To totally forgive we have to be forgiven and be healed by Jesus for all of the things we have done. I have asked for forgiveness many, many times and have received it but I must and do forgive anyone and everyone that has done something to me. Jesus has forgiven us of all of our failures and we need to start seeing ourselves as forgiven! God did send His Son, Jesus, to die for me and if the God of the universe loves me that much I will love who I am and who I am in Christ and also love all of the people that God puts in my path and let go of all addictions because Jesus has set me free and who the Son sets free is free indeed!

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Maybe We Hurt Sometimes Because…

You know

Maybe sometimes the Lord let’s us realize hurt so we can understand His ache when we fall short, stumble, sin.

Maybe He also does this to give us a chance to put His love through us into practice.

How can you also love someone today that has hurt you or is hurting because of sin, unconfessed sin or lingering consequences of past sin?

His word says He will forgive whom we forgive and He will forgive us if we forgive others.

Perfect love casts out all fear because fear has to do with punishment. Jesus forgives when we confess, repent and turn to Him. Let us turn to Him and be firmly rooted and established in His love.

Jesus I ask in Your name to send the Comforter. Breathe on us the Holy Spirit. Revive us. Put Your Holy Fire in us to burn for Your glory. I thank You and praise you today and forever! You reign!

Ashamed of Us, 2fools4Christ? Do Not Fear!

Well, it looks like mother and I will be trying to relax up here in TN until tomorrow morning. God is good. We will praise Him no matter what – we had these same issues from 2010 to 2012 in getting to see the right judge on the right day, but God was orchestrating miracles all along the way. We were able to look back and see that and we can still see that today and know that this time He is still for us and loves us with an unfailing love. Though we struggle we do not fall. He upholds us with His righteous right hand. He has plans for our good, to prosper and not to harm us and for us to have a future and a living hope. We do have a living hope. Like Jerry Dingler said to me in his letters from jail, “But we are not like those who are without hope. We do have a living hope in our Living Lord!” Our Lord does not abandon the work of His hands and He completes the good work that He began in us and He is faithful to complete it.

Friends, you do not need to be ashamed of us for being here. You do not need to fear for us or for our or your or the Lord’s reputation. God is in control. This following verse helped me when I was feeling condemnation towards Jerry as God Himself was dealing with Jerry and his walk with the Lord: Romans 14:4 ” Who are you to judge someone else’s servant? To their own master, servants stand or fall. And they will stand, for the Lord is able to make them stand.” Like wow! I hope that hits you like it did me several months ago! I was trying to control every minute detail of our lives and fix Jerry and our family – with tons of prayer and prayer books and being “perfect” myself in order to help him not be ever stressed out in any way and maintain harmony in the house and make sure he read his Bible every day and prayed every day and prayed with me, blah blah blah…

God told me to get out of the way! He said “I am Jerry’s Lord and Savior, not you. How can Jerry hear the still small voice of my Spirit when you are hovering and smothering and criticizing and accusing and demanding all of the time?” God also let me know to love like He loves… uhm… can you say not easy? Hard? Reluctant? But can you also say, OK? And forgive, and when you see someone really trying, be there for them and encourage them when they are truly trying? Can you swallow your right to be angry and feel betrayed and worried and want to punish and make them regret their behavior and make them mean it and feel some of the anguish that they have caused you?

AND NO YOU CANNOT DO THIS WITHOUT SURRENDERING COMPLETELY TO THE LORD AND LETTING HIM DO THIS WORK IN YOU FROM THE INSIDE OUT AND THROUGH HIS HOLY SPIRIT.

It starts with the choice to surrender to Jesus, to know that you cannot do anything without Him and that you choose to be obedient to His call to love as He loves, to love God with all that you are and to love your neighbor as yourself… love your spouse, love your sister, love your brother. I am mainly speaking right now of my own experience with my sweet husband, a man that I know sincerely never wanted to be in jail again. That never wanted to do anything to separate himself from his family or the Lord. A man that prayed for God’s will to be done and meant it. A man that started out on a journey of complete surrender in 2010 that has brought him to a deeper level of understanding of the fullness of the love of Jesus.

I call it a miracle now in the name of Jesus. I am seeing prayers fulfilled over and over – because we did pray for complete surrender to God’s will, for His way or no way, for His leading, guiding and filling – every day. Maybe he or I meant it more one day than others, perhaps we stumbled in addictions, actions, attitudes, motives – perhaps we sinned/sin along our journey to see the face of Jesus. We struggle with our flesh all the time between our spirit and our flesh they are at war with each other, but that is also how we know that God is at work in us. We do not want to do the things that we used to do. We pray and wish and hope and yearn for the day that we never ever have to battle this flesh again. We are told to work out our own salvation with fear and trembling. Yes we are saved by grace through faith in Jesus. That is why He died for us. He knew we needed Him to cleanse us of each sin, past present and future. Jesus knew who we were when He called us to accept His free gift of salvation and yet still loved us. And God has a reason for our journey. I know it is also to touch each of you that found yourself reading these words. I pray that God’s purpose for you to read this is fulfilled and I know that it will be. He knew your story before you were formed and born into the world. He loved you then and He loves you now. Please surrender to Him, today. ❤ God bless you!

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