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My Darkest Days and Psalm 13

March 13, 2015

Reading Psalm 13 (link to Psalm 13 NIV)

There was a time when I felt like these verses in Psalm 13:1-4 “How long, O LORD? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me?

    How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O LORD my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death; my enemy will say, ‘I have overcome him,’ and my foes will rejoice when I fall.”

I am not sure, well, I am – that during several of the years that I felt that way, that I didn’t wholly and fully and completely trust the LORD as I should have – as David did in verses 5 & 6.

    “But I trust in Your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in Your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for He has been good to me.”

Throughout my darkest days I still had a love for GOD, but I also tried to hide some of myself from Him because I had the idea that He couldn’t use me and my life for His glory and service because I was too unworthy – I had the unworthy part right – but I was missing the bigger truth and the real beauty of the love story between me and GOD – He sees me and knows me full well – and loves me anyway!!! Jesus loves me anyway enough that He bought my eternal soul and my life with His own blood and cleansed me and made me whole by His own power, blood and sacrifice. He calls me His own and loves me. Thank You, LORD!

Even on my darkest days – now, today – I can say because I have known the LORD and He has been good to me – that I do trust in the unfailing love of my LORD and Savior, Jesus. I do rejoice in His salvation, for salvation comes from the LORD and is not dependent upon me, but on Jesus and His finished work on the cross. Now that I understand that, I do have a song in my heart to sing. Because I understand now, what Jesus did for me, I sing because I am happy and free. I trust in Your unfailing love, LORD. I rejoice in Your salvation. I will sing to You, LORD, for You have been good to me!

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A Dark Embrace (written by Angela in 2004)

 

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A Dark Embrace

Have you ever lived in a dark embrace?

Feeling a sense of false security and comfort?

The darkness, at first, may have seemed safe because it reminded you of a secret place where you used to hide.

Or maybe it reminded you of being tucked safely into your bed at night.

In time you became so comfortable with the darkness of the embrace,

that you let down all of your guard and allowed the darkness to seep deeply within your very soul.

The dark embrace, having darkness in its very nature, has no light to share.

It has no warmth, no sincerity, no caring and no love to share with you.

You never realized until it was almost too late,

that the dark embrace is most closely related to a black hole.

The dark embrace will suck up all of the resources within you and your very soul.

The dark embrace thrives

on your light, your warmth, your sincerity, your relationships, your dreams and all that you are.

The dark embrace never returns any of these priceless and precious resources to you.

It has no ability to produce its own light, warmth, caring, sincerity, relationships, dreams or love.

The dark embrace sucks you in, never to be released.

When you finally realize that you are almost bone dry and have nothing left to give,

you are so weak

that all you can do

is exist

as darkly as the dark embrace that envelops you.

***The dark embrace can be represent anything… anything that is not from the LORD. Any sin, any drug, any relationship, any emotion – that is not pleasing to the LORD – can be your dark embrace. THERE IS HOPE! Jesus came to set us free from the darkness and to bring us into His glorious kingdom of light! Do you want to be set free from a dark embrace? Call upon Jesus! He has defeated every foe: the world, the flesh, the devil, sin, death and hell! Trust in Jesus, today and be set free*** Note added 8/25/2014 by Angela Dingler

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In the Beginning Was the Word – Random Thoughts and Ramblings for My Lord, Jesus Christ (from Jerry while in jail on 4/26/14)

 

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John 1:1-5 “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him and without Him was not any thing made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.”

I think this verse is telling us that Jesus is the Word and it’s telling us that Jesus and God are one and the same. It’s also telling us that even today that nothing was made without Him. Jesus gives us light and eternal life. The darkness has not and never will overcome the light because He is light and created the light.

God is good to us each and every day. His mercies are new each and every day. I’m in jail because of something that I did. I used to blame everything that went wrong in my life on God but I have come to a deeper understanding and walk with my Savior. Is it hard to be in here away from the ones I love? Yes, it is, but I know that my family loves me and that I have to lean on Jesus. I know where I’m going at the end of all of this and that is what really matters. 

Just remember that Jesus loves you and have faith that He arose and ascended and is on the right hand of God making intercession for us. Just remember that God loves us. It is that simple.

by Jerry Dingler on April 26, 2014